When you’ve been so overweight for such a long time, expecting your heart to give up and give out from overbearing punishment, you tell yourself…”when I lose this weight, life will be, well, almost perfect”. You desperately want to solve all your problems by tackling one “big” one. But it’s more than that. Someone said that the distance between the head and the heart is 18″. That sounds manageable. I’m here to tell you, it isn’t that simple. Your head knows that you have lost a sizable amount of weight, your back doesn’t hurt anyone, and you can now redistribute the money you were spending on medicine designed to stave off that heart attack. It’s all good, BUT it’s more than that. The heart knowledge/acceptance takes longer. I don’t see the skinny chick that everyone is talking about. And at age 69, I don’t care if I ever see the skinny chick. What I want most is a change in attitude that supports me in eating to live instead of living to eat. That’s my major, major challenge – the cravings, the phantom cravings. I make a declaration: (and ask for prayer) that I WILL get on the exercise bicycle. Where’s the connection? I don’t know, but I do know that my dislike for exercise is blocking something that’s going to take me to where I really want to be. Totally free from depending on food to respond to my emotions. Whewwww. It’s more than that.
